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holy crap!

hello.

ITS SPRING! hoorah horray!!! oh god i needed this so badly. it's my perfect weather right now and i am loviiiiiing it! i'm not necessarily getting more done than before... but it doesn't bother me anymore lol. im just so happy it's warm out. like, warm enough to not need a coat. which is warm to me haha.
spring play at school is well on it's way. Drama Society is doing, *ahem*, The Complete Reduced Works of William Shakespeare (Abridged). i absolutely love this production, and they're not doing it with three people but it's still very clever. it was really fun to help out one day and run lines, coz i knew them all already.   anyway, i'm really into stage crew these days, which is usual for spring-play season but still. i'm working with Ben for cues, figuring lights, and today i helped paint the sets. because Mr. Peutro is in charge of sets, and is also head of the History department, and also failed me for my make-up credits in afro-american history, and is also the person i've been bugging to let me into the psychology class next year, this was a very good thing indeed. he gets so nice to people who help with the play and randomly told me that he'd up my bad grade, which was the last grade i needed to get into psych anyway.
moreover, i've been accepted into Art 4 next year without takeing Art 2 or 3. Mr. Walsh, the head of the art department, is pretty much my new best friend. not only is he a really great guy to be in charge, but he's an artist who's been around lol he just understands like hardly anyone else does! i'm so excited to be in his class. i mean, it was amazing to have him look through my tiny little portfolio; i can't wait until next year! i'm also taking Philosophy G as my MG class, which was easy to get into anyway coz there were maybe 20 names on the sign-up list. but i don't need a science or a math, i have a full year of gym (which i could contract out of but i haven't decided) and then English 4 and a social sciences class, not sure which one of those i'll be taking. anyway, senior year is looking mighty fine from here....

alot of issues are still unsolved, and im learning new things about people (both good and bad) everyday. but Ceal is still my best friend, i still have my family over at CAPA, my favorite japanese place still makes the best sushi, and the weather is ridiculously gorgeous. what more can a girl ask for?

yes, i feel very wobbly these days.

third term as of last week. i'm not totally up to the par i'd like to be, but i can feel myself getting more focused. i mean, i should certainly be finishing my english essay on economical status and it's effect on one's personal perception of self-image in The Great Gatsby instead of updating dA, but i guess i just love you guys more than ms.toliver. im getting an early dose of spring fever, unfortunately, but i think i've learned how to channel this aggression towards healthy goals, like undermining the authority of the lazy bums that order me around in stage crew. i'm back to drawing again, and i'm enjoying how alot of my newest experiments are turning out. i just hafta remember to finish them and put them up here.

i've dropped out of wrestling for now. it's the end of the season anyway, and i've missed so much practice, but if i ever want to do anything else i need to focus everyday on my grades.
there's always next year.

my brain these days has been all a jumble, residing in someplace, bumblefuck. but i think i like it for now. it gives me a kind of numbness and a way to deal with/ ignore stress. as soon as it's warm out, i'm finally going to the park and selling drawings of ppl. i don't know how successful it'll be, but i've always wanted to find out. i need the practice and money anyhow.

until next month, u little nut cakes!

BANTER:
hey there! so there's been alot of stuff goin on. first report card came out and basically i'm on the ineligible list for clubs and sports, and yet i've still been going to stage crew and wrestling. and that too. i'm on the wrestling team now. i was the only girl for a while but my friend joined recently and we're starting a revolution!!! you know, kind of. so hush hush on the whole still going to stuff i'm ineligible for thing. uhm i would have updated my gallery by now by my computer was eaten by a virus last week and my dad still hadn't reinstalled everything on windows 7 yet. including getting the scanner to work. or the speakers, which is especially devastating for me... other than all that things are good. drama is fun. i'm constantly tired. i feng shui'd my room and id be in love with it if only i could repaint the walls and get rid of that ugly carpet. and i turned 17 last month. it feels weird. 0_o

i've mainly been stressed out lately because of school. i'm so angry with my grades because it's all my fault. i can't blame anyone else, even though i'd promised myself that i'd pull it together this year. but as much as i want to be completely dedicated to school i just can't pretend that i'm into it anymore. i want to go to college, but there are so many other things distracting me. my brain feels split in half. =/

so hopefully in a couple of weeks the scanner will be back up and stuff. we're also trying to reinstall flash animation, so i want to use that as an excuse to finally get a tablet. i swear i'll update when i can.

lol i'm not sure why i've started titling my journals like that, but it's fun. =3

so i'm down in LBI again for the rest of the summer! we drove down monday night, and i think i finished unpacking at about 2am, including cleaning out my side of the room (because we've switched this year and ceal usually just kicks stuff under the bed. messy girl! ).
it's so incredibly nice down here! i love living with my best friend, even though we've already been fighting alot. not fighting persay, more like messing with each other. nothing that isn't hilarious of course.
i'm alittle upset though because the recession has even hit down here. ceal recently got promoted at work, so now Bob (the bossman) tells her everything and she gets to relay it all to me. apparently they just barely made payroll last week, so they're gonna start layoffs soon. i'm worried because i'm only ever working for half the summer, so i'm not a very important employee, but ceal says i don't really need to stress for now. they've hired alot of new people this summer and according to ceal they all have "shit stuck between their ears" as i've heard the term. XD i'm one of the more responsible workers, so i guess i'm good for now, only when ceal signed us up to work 5-6 days this week, she got wednesday through sunday and i'm only working saturday and sunday. i dunno how things are gonna go down, but i hated sitting around the house with the dog all day, not to mention it's been cold and raining nonstop today!
well, i've got the rest of august to figure out what to do. oh, and i'm finished one of the summer reading books!
two more to go...