BANTER:
hey there! so there's been alot of stuff goin on. first report card came out and basically i'm on the ineligible list for clubs and sports, and yet i've still been going to stage crew and wrestling. and that too. i'm on the wrestling team now. i was the only girl for a while but my friend joined recently and we're starting a revolution!!! you know, kind of. so hush hush on the whole still going to stuff i'm ineligible for thing. uhm i would have updated my gallery by now by my computer was eaten by a virus last week and my dad still hadn't reinstalled everything on windows 7 yet. including getting the scanner to work. or the speakers, which is especially devastating for me... other than all that things are good. drama is fun. i'm constantly tired. i feng shui'd my room and id be in love with it if only i could repaint the walls and get rid of that ugly carpet. and i turned 17 last month. it feels weird. 0_o

i've mainly been stressed out lately because of school. i'm so angry with my grades because it's all my fault. i can't blame anyone else, even though i'd promised myself that i'd pull it together this year. but as much as i want to be completely dedicated to school i just can't pretend that i'm into it anymore. i want to go to college, but there are so many other things distracting me. my brain feels split in half. =/

so hopefully in a couple of weeks the scanner will be back up and stuff. we're also trying to reinstall flash animation, so i want to use that as an excuse to finally get a tablet. i swear i'll update when i can.

lol i'm not sure why i've started titling my journals like that, but it's fun. =3

so i'm down in LBI again for the rest of the summer! we drove down monday night, and i think i finished unpacking at about 2am, including cleaning out my side of the room (because we've switched this year and ceal usually just kicks stuff under the bed. messy girl! ).
it's so incredibly nice down here! i love living with my best friend, even though we've already been fighting alot. not fighting persay, more like messing with each other. nothing that isn't hilarious of course.
i'm alittle upset though because the recession has even hit down here. ceal recently got promoted at work, so now Bob (the bossman) tells her everything and she gets to relay it all to me. apparently they just barely made payroll last week, so they're gonna start layoffs soon. i'm worried because i'm only ever working for half the summer, so i'm not a very important employee, but ceal says i don't really need to stress for now. they've hired alot of new people this summer and according to ceal they all have "shit stuck between their ears" as i've heard the term. XD i'm one of the more responsible workers, so i guess i'm good for now, only when ceal signed us up to work 5-6 days this week, she got wednesday through sunday and i'm only working saturday and sunday. i dunno how things are gonna go down, but i hated sitting around the house with the dog all day, not to mention it's been cold and raining nonstop today!
well, i've got the rest of august to figure out what to do. oh, and i'm finished one of the summer reading books!
two more to go...

no art classes. no job. no where to go. just summertime.

it's really a wonderful feeling to have nothing to do, and still have time to do anything at all the next day. and the next. and the day after that.

working on some personal projects. thinking i might ACTUALLY update more often (more often than not at all of course)! taking time to work on my mental health. been going running and working out, so i guess that's physical health, too, right? yes.

couple more weeks and i'm moving down to LBI again, over in NJ. i've got a job warmed up and waiting for me, so that's exciting. it's also why i'm going earlier than previous years. also, the family i'm staying with (the lovely Clarks ) are going through a seperation of family and property, and need to sell the house. this of course means that it'll be torn down within the next year and the area will be rebuilt completely. i don't know what'll happen to the yard, though, because Shorty has spent the past few years building an outdoor shower, gazebo, and vegetable patch all on top of a nice wooden porch. it's good condition, so who knows...? anyway, we're all very sad because the house is the oldest in the area because the Clarks once owned about a third of the island, before anyone wanted to live there. the house is basically everyone's childhood, tracing back through generations of Clarks. i think my friend's parent's are going to rent her an apartment there next year though, to make up for it. she has so many friends (plus the job) down there it really wouldn't be fair to make her let it all go. and of course i'll still visit her there in the summer. weird thought though, is that we only have junior year left and then that's the last summer before we graduate. it may be the only summer i spend visiting her in an apartment?

okies, well my soup is getting cold. catcha later!

hey y'all...
school's just about over (one more month of actual class) and yet i still feel like if i don't start some projects now i never will. especially since our vacation this year is hardly more than a month long. -_-
stage crew has basically swallowed my life whole, but kinda like, in a good way..? productions have started today, with one everyday at 3 until friday, and then a finale at 7 again friday night. i'm glad to say i've basically mastered the light box, and Jian and I have totally made the space our own, despite it's extreme tininess. from up there, we can play music out of my DJ headphones and no one downstairs hears it, plus we've learned how much water to stock up on for when the lights start cooking us alive. not only this, but we've figured out how to hook up a tv set backstage, connected to a spy camera onstage, to watch the action, and to another set up in the box with us (and by "we" i obviously mean the awesome sound crew guys who know cables and crap), which is a HUGE help when watching cues. especially so this year; we're doing Harvey, which has entirely long-winded scenes. having the camera set up lets Jain and me sit and read or something while watching the action below. btw, Jian is "Jenn" and is my little light box partner. she's also a junior, which makes things funny for us, coz i teach her everything although i'm younger than her. she's super nice, too, and let me read the giant collection of a manga Eva lent to her. i have no idea what it's called, but it's a cute story and actually lead me to realizing that i hardly read manga anymore. now that im older than when i first picked it up, i can see how ridiculous the characters and story lines can be, and don't get me started on the proportions of people! still, i got to remember why i liked it in the first place. there's this sort of passion for story-telling behind a good manga that pulls one away from the horrid chibi-faces.

so, while i'm still keeping up with school and crew and whatnot, i've decided to start a little comic for myself. it probably won't have any kind of plot or realism to it or anything, but i want to keep my practice up and experiment with certain aspects of a comic that i wouldn't normally get to do. plus, i wanna have fun with it! i've been pulling out every spare paper in my bag and spend most classes these days dazed out and sketching and drawing and so on. i'll do my best to update regularly, seeing as that's a diligence issue that i ought to work on anyway.

wish me luck and good stuff like that!

oh boy oh boy!
well, happy 2009. happy Obama as president. happyhappyhappy

so much going on these days that i can hardly put them out as a legible journal entry. so i'll just pick one. i'm so guilty of not updating that i'm hanging my head in shame. really! so, i have a project i need to finish before friday coz it's a mail-in thing, and once that's done i swear to focus more on getting more stuff up here.

just not on the moon.